Be honest, be brave, be kind, look around — the words were never uttered, but the message always got through.
In those days in the little town of Pultney ville, New York, a broken window was a big deal, and I was close to miserable.
I suspected, too, that my parents had told Uncle Jim, whom I worshipped. But coming back from a trip to the store, riding besides him on the front seat of his dark-green DeSoto Fire-dome, I glanced over a time or two, fast. I could see a bemused smile at the corner of his mouth.
“Telling the truth is always easier,: straight out of the blue. He took his eyes off the road for a second and grinned at me. “So it’s perfect for a lazybones like you and me.”
I swallowed, watching the mailboxes go by, waiting. But that was it — no scolding, no moralizing. My uncle began to hum, and I was awash in relief. Like you and me, My pal was still my pal.
It wasn’t long before I got the chance to test Uncle Jim’s thesis. One day I spotted a pair of brown leather gloves on the windowsill in the post office. Old Mrs. Jameson had come in wearing them and had left barehanded, struggling with a bulky package. I tried the gloves on. They were perfect.
That night I had a losing bout with my conscience. The truth is easier for a lazybones like you and me. The following day, I returned the gloves and told Mrs. Jameson the truth.
A month later, a small package arrived for me. Inside were the gloves and a note: “I needed another pair , and thought you might like these. Mrs. J.”
When my uncle asked where I got the snazzy gloves, I told him the story.
“See?” he said, delighted.
Yes, I did see. I still do.
James bellows little would have winced at the idea that he ever taught anybody anything. He had a lifetime allergy to cookie-cutter wisdom. But he always applied a light touch to common sense as it angled through his prism.
He did it almost every time I saw him. His eyebrows would arch invitingly as he waited for me to get it, whatever it was — how to use a thesaurus or operate a Coleman stove, how to gauge an opponent across a tennis net or a shift of wind across a main snail. I listened and watched, and once in a while, I even learnt.
Uncle Jim even taught me to see through tears. My father died when I was twelve, and as my mother’s brother, Uncle Jim must have felt an urge to step in, but he didn’t. He stayed in, providing a steady hand and a calm presence.
Only late in the game did I realize how deftly he’d be tailored what he did and said to the needs of a kid who hadn’t really known he had any. My uncle seemed to think, for instance, that I could stand a little help on gullibility, so literally used his head.
One day when I was seven, I asked him why his head was bald but his chest was hairy. “Oh, he said breezily,” during World War II, I had the hair on my head transplanted. The Army Air Corps did it for free, and that way I’d never have to bother with barbershops. Not a bad deal, huh?” he asked with a wink.
Uncle Jim ran an industrial-rubber goods company in downtown Rochester, and in those days before major highways, the rush-hour commute to his house on Lake Ontario could be brutal. I was with him one afternoon when, never exceeding the speed limits, he made it without catching a single red light. “How’d you do that? I wanted to know.
“Rhythm drive,” he said cheerfully. “I don’t know why I have it, but I do. So does your mother. Your Uncle Bill doesn’t.”
He glanced at me with an almost straight face. “Maybe you’ve got it, but we won’t know for a few years.”
Rhythm drive! I bought it on the spot, and clung to it until I was old enough to get my driver’s license. Eventually I’d see for myself that daily commuters need a notion like rhythm drive.
Rush-hour traffic? Baldness? If you can’t beat ’em, celebrate ’em! That was Uncle Jim’s way. Over and over he reminded me that friendship is a currency that never depreciates. And he had his own way of showing it. Just back from a trip, for example, he’d stop the first friend he saw and insist on buying him lunch.
If t he guy didn’t have time, he’d offer to buy him a hat. This was how he told his pals he missed them, and how good it was to see them again.
To bolster my self-assurance, every now and then, Uncle Jim would offer to bet all the change in his pocket against all the change in mine. No fair checking to see how much I had in my corduroys, either. It was a dare, and it made a kid feel like a gunslinger. He always decided what the bet was about, but I didn’t find out until I’d say yes.
“Want to bet?” he would say, all of a sudden.
“Okay.” And the game was on.
“What’s the capital of Ohio?”
“Ummmmmmmmm Columbus!”
“Hmm,” he’d say, feigning surprise, then reach into his pocket. “Hey, what do you know — 27 cents!”
It wasn’t the money; it was the reminder that sometimes you just have to jump in — even when you don’t know how cold the water is. I can’t remember ever losing one of those bets. Somehow Uncle Jim made it work out that way. It was a confidence game in the best sense. Most kids need things like that somewhere along the line. I sure did.
In time my Uncle would teach me many manly things — how to knot a bow tie, how to handle a tractor, how to fold a gabardine suit so it doesn’t wrinkle, how to look life in the eye — and tell if it’s winking back.
He loved beauty, too, and wasn’t afraid to show it. Thrusting a pair of gardening gloves and my aunt’s rubber boots at me, he’d lead me on a search for wildflowers. Back at the house, he’d put a huge Mason jar on the table, then seek my counsel on how best to arrange our trove.
Be honest, be brave, be kind, look around — the words were never uttered, but the message always got through.
By example, too, Uncle Jim reminded me that men read books and value them for their beauty and inspiration. I was proud to be among those who knew behind which living room volumes — some well-thumbed of Dickens — he kept his stash of macadamia nuts.
His prodding reminded me that my father had been a voracious reader and a good gardener. Would I otherwise have spurned such ‘sissy’ pursuits? Possibly. Uncle Jim wasn’t taking any chances. He helped me arrive at my dad’s conclusion: these were things worth making time for.
Uncle Jim and I hadn’t talked much about my father in the years since his death. But that changed one afternoon when we were cutting brush at his place at the lake.
“When Monty died, you lost a father and your mom lost a husband, he said. “I lost a friend. But your dad lost the chance to see how his hopes would turn out. All of a sudden, it was the end of a life, and it was too soon — he never got to know. That’s the tough part.”
He looked at me. There was a touch of anger in his face. He, too, resented my father’s having drawn so short a straw. I was startled to realize that, independently, I had the same feelings. Maybe I was growing up.
We walked across the broad lawn toward the lake. At the end of the bluff were a pail of old golf ball and a couple of drivers whose shafts were more rust than metal. From a height of 100 feet above the narrow, rocky beach, we teed up and swung from the heels, trying to give each ball one long, last ride.
My uncle hit what for him was a monster — not a high, arcing shot but a Ben Hogan bullet. The ball clothes-lined out, out over the dancing blue water, then fell, leaving a tiny, defiant signature of spray.
It might have gone 250 meters or so over ground — not bad for a short-hitting 20-handicapper using an old club and a mangled ball. I was still trying to keep my eye on the spot where it had plopped when Uncle Jim said, “How do you like that? The drive of my life, and it still winds up in a water hazard. Talk about life being unfair!” Then he whooped with laughter.
On One August Day, on a fishing trip near Henderson Harbor not far from the St. Lawrence River, the two of us were in a battered 12 footer powered by a small outboard. I was a bit hang-dog at our slow putt-putting along, Uncle Jim said speed was fine if you wanted to go fast, but slowing down made my journey less of a blur. “It helps your focus,” he said.
I thought of that decades later when he was dying, becalmed by a failing heart in his 82nd year. Was he seeing more, even as he slowed? Jim Little was an observer who touched those he loved by sharing what he saw. I understood some of what he showed me pretty fast, but other things took decades to become clear.
From time to time in his later years, he’d send me something I’d sent him 30 or 35 years earlier. A drawing of his house on the bluff. A crayon rendering of a sailboat with a stick figure and “JBL’ on the transom. At first these mementos triggered feelings of affectionate amusement. But as they accumulated I came to recognize them as the clearest signposts Uncle Jim had set out for me. Time had passed, they gently reminded. “You’re not a short-pants nephew anymore.” Matter of fact, you’ve got nephews of your own, so hop to it.
Those aging scraps lie flat in a wooden box near my desk. But my mind’s eyes sees them as my heart knows them to be — tightly rolled into a baton that has finally passed to my hand.
